Annoying Sleep

The other night, I was DISTURBED by my brother and couldn't really get a good night sleep.
I didn't like the position he was sleeping in and it really bothered ME!

Imagine... someone sleeping with you with their feet towards YOU! Disgusting isn't it? I really don't like it at all. It kinda annoys me. I'll like to give the person one tight slap. haha. Not that evil as some people.

"All of us need to catch up with time now and then!"

I'll start off with me being.... i don't know how to describe. sorry.

I was busy taking photos of myself while I was waiting to be picked up by someone. I found the nice, beautiful background there was at my place. So I took them.

This pic looks weird cause I prefer if I was wearing my other specs. Or is it the smile?

Weird right? Anyway, she was late. Which makes me late as well. And she said she'll pick me up at 1.45pm! That's like so near the time we're suppose to be there. And there was a jam too! sigh... wish there was someone else who could fetch me. So that I don't have to be late. Its not nice being late you know.

The night was alright with the marvelous food I had. It was superb! My mom cooked, that's why. So I'm guessing that that night's dinner was pretty much Italian style. =D haha. I enjoyed alright.

Going into my parents room, I saw the most shocking thing that shocked me. Okay, maybe not the most shocking thing ever. But it did for a minute. It was the moon! Like in some movies they have the moon in between the clouds or even like how the wolf would howl towards the sky. Its like that. haha. I wanted to take a picture of it but I was on the phone. While standing there, I felt the breeze come in and noticed the moon shifted above the clouds after about 10-20 minuted standing there. It was good. =)

There are some things in my life which I've never had the time to do or just write them down. So this year I've said that I am going to...hopefully...make some goals in my life that I'll be able to achieve them.
These are some of the things which I hope to accomplish before being and adult:

1. At least visit places which I've been longing to go like US, Australia, England, popular parts of Europe, etc.
2. Enjoy myself while I'm still a kid.
   
3. Have a good relationship with my family so that we won't quarrel and stuff (even with brother).
   
4. Be satisfied with the things I have and ask for no more until I learn to control what I want exactly.

Its been hard for me over these 2 years. The environment around has been constantly changing and so is my attitude and character. I guess...its everytime I'm in a new place or something.

I've been longing to put this up.

Don't ask why but adore it. I know that when people see this, they'll just look at that CUTE little face! haha. Enjoy!

~~ End ~~

The days of the outcast

"No one did mean to do these things to you"

The day started with me day dreaming off with my H&G. I did my Science test and I'm happy for that ONLY today. I got 91%. Its good enough already cause I didn't expect myself to score such high marks. I understood my mistakes and hope I'll not repeat them.
Everytime I go to school, I just wonder how will my day turn out to be. Will it be good or bad? I really wonder. Sometimes I even wonder if my friends really do care about me or take any concern in me to do or say anything...at all. Will it be any better for me then? These things hurt me from the inside, and wonder again, if I'll ever be with such a group that I can understand and mix well with. If any of you would like come and comfort me. You are welcomed. haha.

Nowadays, the school's most nosiest and crazy group is the people like Kay Jen, Trina, Melanie, Lewis, and Darren. Sometimes, some other people will join the group too. I am actually interested in the stuff they talk about but I won't be able to open my mouth to say anything cause....I simply have nothing to say. =( Anywayz, I don't mind. Cause at the same time I am too trying my best to communicate with the so-called "outcasts" in some classes. Whenever I try to, they'll just give the answers which I'm NOT looking for. But there's this particular girl, Renise. She's quite cool actually, in personality. Funny to be with too. I like her but she's like in the middle trying to be with 2 different groups at the same time. Just like me last time. But now its totally different. I preferred middlers class so much BETTER! My first 2 years in this school were good and now I think its gonna be just and 'ok' year for me. How sad is that? =(
I'll rather not talk about it now. It just upsets me whenever I come into that subject. I really missed those years. But to look at bright future ahead. I hope.

While waiting for other people to go home, my dad had a short chat with Jo Chuah's mom and he was shocked at the things said by her mother. I obviously, didn't know such things would be discussed in their family or any other family. And I too, was shocked and laughed my heart out because of what she said. It was going far beyond what was expected. I guess from now on my parents won't tell me anything what's gonna happen to the school anymore.

I can't take it anymore. I'm so sick of this! Whenever people come to me and ask me "Wat should I do?". That sort of question. I'll just be there listening to them trying to give them something soothing to their hearts so that they don't contain too much inside them and I'll just like get nothing in return. I don't know what I'm doing is wrong. I seem to be the only one not getting anything here and when I need it, I don't know If I should or should not. That seems to be the difficult part for me. =( I don't know la. I feel so isolated by the strangers I see in my life. They should know better than to leave me alone in the dark.

~ the night's pic ~

~~ END ~~

I didn't mean to!

Ghost of You and Me by BBmak

I didn't mean to fall
In love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love
It's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Wonderful Night

Peaking from beneath the stone. ...

When I walked out from the shop last night, I was stunned at how bright and beautiful the MOON was. It was shinning through the windows of the apartment that makes it better still. How wonderful is that?

Now comes to the moonlight when its up beyond the hills...

~ MEL~

"One cannot be too sleepy when he is in the midst of something important"

I don't know what came over me this morning. But the intention to just go to s-l-e-e-p.
I just couldn't stay awake in class like one-fourths of the time. Its just so tempting to fall asleep in class when I CAN have the chance to do it.

Today I did my maths lpt and scored 92%! Yay me. =D I'M FINALLY IN LVL 9! At least for one of the subjects. But I'll have to suffer in H&G cause I've got a long way to go. =( But I'm still happy that I DID IT! At least I got higher than Jo. haha.

I feel late. In a sense that I've just run out of time for doing my work tonight. I feel I've just wasted a lot of time just sitting at computer dealing with my facebook and emails dashing in at me. And the fact that the TV is my number one DISTRACTION. So there's certainly a problem going on here. sigh...

The opposite of this to the sunset of the night...

The moon shines on this beautiful night that makes the sky blend in together

The poster above is especially made by ME! haha.

My dad was teaching on Saturday about "Hang-in There" and so asked us to do something la. It looks really nice (for me), don't you think? Anyway, I'm really surprised at how nice my art is nowadays. But I'm also nervous at doing it too. Whenever I want to do something which I think its gonna be nice, I have a feeling that I'll make a mistake. But sure, everyone makes mistakes. So we try agin. That's the good part about it sometimes. =)

Together we shall hold on to our problems and pray that we'll just overcome them in just a knick of time. We'll also realize that everything we've ever held on to will become whole again. =) That's the good thing about it when you start expressing yourself. It just feels SO good to be free once again.