These days I'm so distracted by the surroundings that happen in class.

Its just darn annoying and irritating! I can't study if they keep on making these kind of commotion in class.

Especially with the JOSPEHINE around! (Sry but you've gotta keep your volume down) I didn't want to say anything cause I know for sure wherever a person is, he/she will never get any peace unless its like during the middlers' lunch break. It was so quite that you can even hear a pin drop drop.

So ya. Its just gotta stop!

"God always and a will and plan for us in our lives"

I've not been blogging for a while cause I've been kinda lazy lately. I just don't want to go online on my comp but I'll do it either on the first or whatever. It all depends on me.

I'll do it from Tuesday. But I kinda forgot what I did already unless someone reminds me. haha! Wednesday's pe was "ugh". ya. I didn't like it cause I wasn't running a lot. Its not like I like to run a lot actually. But not running during the game didn't feel nice. I had an off/on feeling whether that day would be good or not for me. And parts of the day did feel good. sigh...

Again, I forgot what I did on Thursday but I don't think its not that important either. No. Oh oh. I remember now. I asked Steph if I could borrow her Twilight book and I wanted to see what's so mesmerizing about that guy anyway. Maybe sooner or later I'll find out WHY.

Today's Friday. And I feel good cause I'm gonna sit for my test and at least more than 5 books in February. Yay! But I really have to catch up with my projection and the fact that I'm sick of being in 8 already. Except for this one book I love in Bible; 808. Its so interesting that I could finish it in a week. I had to take my time to do the book. That book is about learning well in school (the proper ways) and what problems teenagers face in school nowadays. Its like about the right time for me to learn the topic. =) =) =)

During chapel, I don't know why for some reason I get kinda nervous during projection time. And when its not in school like say during church time, I don't get nervous. Strange. But today's worship was so weird. Its like the song only lasted for maybe less than a minute (thats for the first song). Odd. Maybe cause she's a new worship leader and she is nervous about it. I kept on looking at these 2 girls who were constantly looking at each other like saying through eye contact, "what do I do next?". Ya, something like that.

Later today, I experienced how it felt to be hurt by someone who wanted to pay it back to me. Like revenge. I was having quite a dull time actually after school cause I have to stay back extra later to wait for the slow maids to clean the place. They should at least come earlier or some other day to do the cleaning. Anyway, there was this boy as well who always like to bully this girl that goes home with me. Okay, I'll call her A. I accidentally hit the crash on the drums and made her ears painful and she wanted to 'balas dendam' to me and I tried my best to get away from it. While fighting, she wanted to scratch me instead of biting me now and she DID!

LOOK:
It was so painful and the boy who likes to bully her tried to get his revenge too by doing something to her la. It wasn't as bad as she physically doing something to us. She scratched him even badly than mine. And it looked almost like a mosquito bite. haha.
We both felt sad. I felt more like frustrated and angry for her doing something like that. I was surprised in fact. It was like she ripped my skin literally! I tried saying sorry. Don't whether it'll help. =(

Anyway, I've gotta wake up so early tomorrow morning for this conference at DUMC. 6am you know!
I think its earliest I've ever woken up since last year or the year before. Hope I'll have fun.

~~END~~

"Life has its ups and downs"

In the beginning, my day was solemn. But as it drew near to the end of the day, what a surprise that the day just got better! But that earlier post was just for the morning. ya.

Netball practice after school was a NIGHTMARE! shall I repeat again.... NIGHTMARE!!! The "coach" was so harsh on us. I didn't even feel my idiotic feet move at ALL! And everytime she would just say "STOP". I am so sick of her saying those words. It just "grrr!" makes me really annoyed! And I end up running aimlessly and almost without air to breathe anymore. AHHHHHHH!!! Let us just play on our own can or not? Huh? Its so unfair! Even Jo. Chuah's training (well, the way she drills us) is better. At least not so harsh as too keep on stopping.

Spend a good evening at the mall and headed home dead. Had a delicious dinner that until now I'm still full. haha =P

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Where are the people in this world nowadays that I need???
Isn't there any hope for me to enjoy my years in high school?
I wonder...

I'm just so obsessed with my work nowadays.
Isn't there any fun in school anymore?
I guess not!

WHY?!

The problems/events happening in this school just bores me to DEATH!
Having a much better school like going back to government school could be much better than this school. But the only problem are the things I'm gonna learn. =( sigh...

Maybe if I could just have a little bit more luxury in my work or the SCHOOL STUFF! then I could probably continue.

This day couldn't get much worse...

Ever wonder how the floor of the Petronas place looks like? Well, here's a good chance for you to take a look.

I went here for some orchestra thingy. It was pretty awesome inside. But unfortunately, they don't allow pictures taken inside so cannot take any. But certain parts were boring though.

Are people getting married?

Why do I find so many wedding shops around SS2 area? Its weird. Its like a supermarket of them. haha!

what century is this car from???

Recap from CNY hols

These are to show you the cuts I had while helping my mom with organizing the books we had to do. I didn't like them at ALL! But I enjoyed helping my mom with the books. =)

Don't Let Things Said To You Go In One Ear And Out The Other

I've learned two things today in both cell group and during service.

1) Have faith. Some people say they don't have enough faith to become a Christian. Whereas Christians say, "You don't need to do that." All it takes is a step of faith and you're one already.
Hebrews 11:1 says, " Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

This chapter is basically the hall of fame for the heroes in the Bible.
Example: Hebrews 11:5-6 says, "By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For Before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those earnestly seek him."

So, its time for us to stat goal setting starting with 2008.
Hebrews 11:39-40, "These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect." Our CG needs to grow in number and faith. Hopefully, by the end of the year we can reach at least below 40 people. I wonder how I'm gonna do that by at least inviting someone from school and the fact that I wanna go somewhere else or rather quit. Maybe the youth in my church might be fun and something like DUMC. At least.

For us Christians, we have to make an effort to make time for God. Especially prayer. It is the most important thing for us Christians.


2) The Church and I. Learn the 3 "A's" to become a good member of a church.

First 'A':
Attend. Attending the church is a very good thing. Some people out there can just go to church 3 times in their life! (when they're a child, getting married, and when they die) These things ARE true.

Second 'A':
Assist. How can we help in the church? Thats what is asked. How can we? We can start with thinking what the church lacks in first then we can do that or join something that you think you'll like. Helping out in some kind of ministry is good.

Third 'A':
Advertise. There are many non-believers out there in the world who need the Lord but maybe don't know where it is or don't want them. There are some also near the church who we can reach out too. =) It'll be good to let them know that we do exist.


These are some of the things I've learned today in church and hope I can put them into practice. I know I'm not the kind of person who'd post these kind of things but thank you for bearing with me. This topic just came to my mind and I decided to write it down (in blog). Its actually very good for considering I didn't fall asleep. I know its bad. haha!

~~END~~

I MISSED MY COMPUTER
(cause I've not been on it for quite some time already and I feel I've gone further from it. But no worries, I'm BACK!)

I've been very busy these few days. First, "addicted" to studying. I've just gotta finish my goals. Thats all. And second, I'm being occupied by other things. Ya.

I'll do it from Monday. It was sleepy for me. I've been falling asleep in class recently for don't know what reason. The environment just makes me go to sleep especially when I have my jacket with me. The smell of the jacket can put me to a nice comfy sleep. But the table's too hard. =( After school, we practiced again for netball. I did my warm-up before playing under the HOT sun! I think the more I keep on waling for whole 2 1/2 rounds, my legs/muscles might just pass out. haha. Practice was good for me but not for the "captain". She's having too much pressure just watching the short little game we practiced. Then a miracle happened a few days later.
This week, I managed to do 3 tests in a row (Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday). I'm proud of myself. If you guys think thats easy-piecy, I find that an achievement for me okay. Anyway, those tests were the 3 main subjects I'm suppose to basically concentrate on. =D I don't like to even touch the H&G BOOK! Its just reminds me of more memorizing. But I have to finish them in the end right? ya. I'm behind schedule anyway. It sucks.
So far, its 2/5 for the number of books that have reached grd 9. sigh.........
Immediately I got back and started counting my angpow money and I got LESS that last year! That is seriously suckish!
PE day and there came netball practice again. sigh. We had to jog/walk 2 rounds and no stop. Thats good enough. Better than having Tc. Rosalind asking to RUN! Its really tiring to run around the field 2/3 times y'know. Anyway, the amazing thing is that the team was more in a better shape. Like a miracle. With an extra member in the team is good and she's good too! How fantastic is that. We have a lot of shooters already (I'm a shooter). Thats what the "captain" says. But I don't know for the actual captain. She didn't say anything yet. But I'm glad that I can shoot nowadays and have another basketball companion or someone who at least has a similar taste to mine. I used to like basketball more that netball. I didn't care about netball actually. It wasn't part of my interest either. So I was like "who cares". That kind of attitude. Overall, everyone played a lot better than Monday (that day was worse than pe day). Thank goodness the captain wasn't there to see it.
The following day was boring too and I get to go back early. Just because its Chap Goh Mei. My place is normally crowded with people on that day because there's a temple nearby.
I have too start concentrating on how to improve my maths a LOT more better. I find it really poor! Must get my hands on that revision book my dad has.

That reminds me, Its my DAD'S BDAY TODAY! Happy Birthday Daddy! =D I enjoyed my day. I had such a wonderful evening with my family tonight. We walked around the Gardens looking for the restaurant my dad wanted to go. For those who hated him last time, please forgive him cause he did some unfair things to you. Thanks. =) I was so full that I was complaining that I couldn't walk already. Nah, it wasn't that bad actually. haha. I just need to get a break from eating first or get a drink or something. ya.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WHO'S BDAY IT IS IN FEBRUARY!!!

~~END~~

Error. its saying ERROR

I say this is b'cos I was bored after church and I wanted some company but everyone I tried sms-ing to were busy. That's just sad. I was really bored and no mood to do anything but just go home and rest. Its realy tiresome sometimes. When I want it I just can't get. That is really a pain. Why can't I get it? At least I can get some in return right? I think that should be the way man! Not just letting people having what they want constantly and me not having them. sigh. That just seems UNFAIR! But unfortunately we can't control them. Thats the worse part about it.

Sometimes I get feelings like thats the answer but its not. Its the opposite. What kind of instinct is that? I should learn how to trust on my instincts right? yea. Like there a song in your heart that says to listen to your heart. =) right? ya. We should listen to our heart.

"The holidays have only ended, but there'll be more to come"

I've not gotten the chance to post anything long since Tuesday as you have noticed. If you have then thats good. hehe. On Tuesday, I had to go to school again. If you're from my school, you'll understand. Going to school everyday including hols isn't nice at all. But the fact that I can actually get some work done is good enough for me. For this CNY break, I've discovered things I couldn't do at home. For instance, I could study with music but too much for me gets me thinking about it all day and I can't get any sleep. sigh... Then the other thing is that I like the way I studied then cause I could relaxed my time compared to the schedule they (teachers) have for us in school. The time there is like all WORK and NO play. Well, there is a little bit of play time but its like just 15-30 mins only. In total, the whole day is practically WORK and 45 mins break. What a rip off right?

Anyway, I've had a lot of time to practice different instruments along the way too. Banging the drums was the best. But too much of it could cause my ear some hearing probs. haha. Practicing the guitar was cool. But don't like the part when I have to stretch my fingers so long. By the way, I'm learning how to play it by myself. Like self-teaching. haha. ya... The fingers hurt too, but I can't wait to get hard ones so that I don't have to complain about the plain everytime.

My family (they're involved in the school) had to go to subang to pick up the books for the school and I got to see the new office. Cause they moved from the school. I had the experience of my mom when I helped her sort out the books and count the number of books there are too. It was tiring. But I enjoyed it. It was a very good experience I'll say, working with my mom. I've never seen how they sort out the books and all, which was enjoyable I guess but a lot of hard work. It get to your head too.

Wednesday was the day I got to see a lion dance this year for once. Since last year, from finding out more about my phone, I've not gotten to see any. Last year was cool. This year was ok la. It was in the shopping mall. So I couldn't see it properly. And besides, I was reading a "very" interesting magazine. Gossip actually. Plus, it had all my fav stars. So I like that magazine.

Got back and... I forgot what I did already.

My night for Thursday was so GOOD! The Amazing Race Asia 2 was showing its last episode and the Singaporean boys won. It was ok. As long as the Filipino boys don't win that good enough cause they are always first at the pit stop. Which is so unfair. Actually no. They are actually a very strong team to compete with. If there was a stronger one from Malaysia we would probably win too. Like last year. Our Malaysian girls, Pamela and Vanessa Chong (Vincent Chong's sisters), got in 2nd place. It wasn't too bad. The last roadblock of the race slowed down the Filipino boys a lot. Yay! haha. They were always first! In the end they got 3rd place.

Oh ya, I forgot to mention that its Valentine's Day. The day where lovers either make their proposal to their girlfriends or just go out together to malls and so their "stuff". yea. I didn't do anything special though. Neither did my parents. How pathetic. They should at least do something.

These are one of the best Fridays I've ever had in months. I am always aware of what I wear and see if its suitable for the particular event I'm going to. I don't simply choose my clothes like some people. If they do. Anyway, I like the way I dressed that day. Although I had to spend the whole day in school again. I got to express myself banging the drums a lot. I enjoyed that. It was FUN. =) Got to do some work. Ugh! I had to read my H&G which was kinda boring b'cos it wasn't very interesting considering the fact that it was most POLITICS! Anyway, my family had to go to Sunway Pyramid for my dad's appointment there and I got some stuff which I needed for a long time already. And I finally got them. So thats done. While that, I saw so many couples in the mall holding hands and some player getting on the kids ride. Most of them were wearing clothes which I've gotta say is so MODERN! Yea. My eyes are going to go bonkers. Later we went to Aunty Christie's house (one the staff in the school, also a close friend to my parents I guess) for the dinner she hosted. It was good food. Almost everything was spicy but I could take it. I loved the prawns and scallops. Yum yum. Didn't get a chance to finish the show "The Game Plan". I wanted to finish it but it was time to go home. sigh... Got home (wash up, talk a little while) and later slept.


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What I would do to start this post with

What a BEAUTIFUL sunset

The sun shines like something is going to happen

A little something to do before I go wild. haha

Yawn...zzz....

Find out if this happens to you...

Whether I'm in the car, the classroom, the semianr hall, praise/worship time, or whatever, I'll yawn when I have the chance to or maybe If I see someone yawn, I'll just happen to yawn too. Its weird. Even my mom has the same experience. But, she once read the reason to all this. I wonder what IS that answer to these strange things that happen to us.

Do you get the same thing?

Me In School

Attending school during the holidays isn't so bad after all, and I was quietly and obediently doing my work there too. I thought it would be bad for me going back to school, especially during the holidays. I know most of the schools in Malaysia have already gone back to school. But mine isn't going back yet. Probably next week. Wait... it IS next week. Anyway, I just discovered that I could study with MUSIC! Yay! I love that. Its GOOD. =D But I find myself lacking behind in time. I can take maybe a few hours just to finish one subject. sigh... Thats bad.

As I continue studying in school during the holidays, I feel that its gonna be like school days.

Tata,
~~ MEL ~~

Speaking Out

What you're about to read is what I feel about this world and what is coming out of my mind. Sorry if you think its too adult-ish. =) But enjoy. If there are any mistakes or things you want to say about this post or let out just do it on the right hand side please. Thank you.

"Every man on earth, standing or sitting, has their own rights in life. They deserve a second chance and so does everyone. They are just like you and I. Human rights come from the human being itself. And that should be the way too. If you think we don't deserve them, well, think about yourself FIRST.

I've come over the fact that when we do something to someone, sooner or later, we'll get the same respond or effect in our lives. Like the saying goes, "You sow what you reap". There was this time not too long ago, I kicked my little bro. It was actually both, accident and play. I'm serious about this that it was both. I didn't know that kicking him would be so painful for him. He cried like crazy man! I was scared and didn't know what to do but try and make him feel better. But it didn't work and only made it worse. =( Now I've learned not to do anything so hard towards him anymore. Y'know, sometimes I just wish he'd just grow up FASTER!!! Its so tiring and going to take ages till he grows to be about my age (15). sigh.... WE'RE 10 YEARS APART! Can you believe that? Its not nice at all. =( So as I was saying that we'll get our revenge back anyway. So NEVER do anything bad towards someone unless its for a VERY good reason. It shows your character too. So don't worry and just enjoy life. "

~~ END ~~

Peculiar matters

I've been having weird people coming up to me lately.
First I meet an old friend of mine whom I've not seen for a long time.

Second, I bang into unknown strangers. and

Third, some weird person called me and said some gibberish stuff. I completly didn't understand her at all! Immediately she just started blabbering some Indian stuff and throwing them at my face (ear). How rude isn't it? Seriously, no manners at all. She didn't even say hello or anything but just said her Indian rubbish. I was so blur at that time too. So blur that I didn't know what was going on.

I have no idea why these things happen to me. They just come out of NOWHERE! I'm telling you, its just bizarre. Maybe these things are just a coincidence to me in life. sigh... They can be so unpredictable sometimes. I wish they would just give a signal or something to tell me its coming or something.

Why can't my Mozilla WORK?!?!?!?!

I can use Internet Explorer but its kinda useless to me. Sorry to say to those who prefer using Internet Explorer but it doesn't work for me. So sorry again.

I MISS MY MOZILLA!!!!!!

Stars

"when I look at the stars..."

- Stars by Switchfoot

These couple of nights, nights before CNY, I looked up into the sky and saw STARS. And nice ones too. Just outside my window. Its was really pretty. But if it weren't for the red lights that kept on shinning into the sky it would be even better. Just like how I remembered my experience in Sabah when it was night time and there were NO street lights on the road and I could see the nice starry night there. =) That was good. =D

So as I was saying, days before CNY, I looked up at the sky and saw a couple of stars about 5-6 of them. Then the following day, I looked up again and saw about 3-4 of them up there. Maybe the clouds were covering them. =( And it came to TODAY that there was only one tiny little star.

*sob sob*

Life

"Life is short, so live well with it"

In a few more months I'm going to turn 15. I know thats still kinda young for you adults, but for some kids/teenagers they think thats OLD. Its kinda true. We are going old. Year by year...


Since today, I saw soooooo many things I liked and wanted. But, as always I can't have them. They must be under the budget price unless its from someone else. I've already started on my bday list. Here are some of them:

• Latest Heroes book (it really excites me!)
• A music score book (piano or guitar)
• Music instrument books that teaches you (guitar or violin)

Ya. Thats pretty much it for now. haha

Insane!

"Life has its ups and downs, but it can really make you down"

Ne-Yo - Go On Girl

Its been a long time since I've last blogged. sigh... I feel like a real brat following after one another to their own steps to go on in life. I go on really high inside like I'm going really fast and can't control anymore until the person or thing is gone. I have a tendency to not do anything to let people see them.

Saturday, the reddest day ever a.k.a. SUPER SATURDAY! haha. It was because everyone in XYZ was wearing red. I was ok la at that time. Saw many red people, listened to many red people, and prayed with many RED people! After the whole thing, I waited for almost an hour for my parents. First thing was that youth ended early and I thought they'd end at 4.30. But no.

Saturday service wasn't that bad. The speaker was kinda exciting to hear since his accent and all. Relatively speaking, its SO much better than the other Saturdays. =) At least then I could stay awake.

When I got back, I wanted to rest but I had some unfinished business to take care of. I stayed up until I think 2.30-3am. That I would call the "latest" time I've ever stayed up. My parents would call that crazy but that's what some teenagers nowadays do anyway! From 11.30-2/3am. It was a good talk. =) Immeadiately after the call, I fell to the surface of the bed. I was dead tired but later realized that it wasn't the right way.

As usual, on Sundays I don't go out. But this one was important. It was the first family reunion with my mom's side. That means..... ANGPOWS. But we (my cousins) didn't receive them until later in the night. sigh. I did enjoy my dinner and fun I had with my cousins playing ps. haha. But the one thing I really hate that must happen during a family dinner is my grandaunty lecturing to my cousin about eating proper food during dinner time. I bet the long lecture must have caused him to weep a little. But I guess he held back while the lecture was still on. I would have felt like I wanted to punch her into bits. I know that quite cruel considering she my aunt too. But I know. Its really what I felt like doing if I was in his position. I used to feel like that when i was young. It really brought me to a high-temper mood. And that caused my rebellious ways towards my parents I guess. But now I've chaged and hope that I won't repeat them. Ever.

Monday came and there came an anoucement by the "head supervisor", saying that there's gonna be an early day for Wednesday. I'm not so happy about that cause we still have to do work. =( That really sucked. Many people aren't going to school on the eve of CNY. So who cares right? I care, that there aren't gonna be anything fun to do and its gonna be soooo boring too.

Tuesday, teacher started appointing people for taking over devotion. Oh-O! Its doom for all of us. Nah, just kidding. But the first after the hols woulf be the most talkative person in class and we all know it. I don't have to mention. You should know it yourself.

The whole thing was just so dull. Eveyone left like half-hour after dismissal from the boring old school. The new students have been saying that the school is damn SMALL. Ya, I know that. Its was like the smallest school ever. You shoul see other smaller ones like the other centers! I've been to big schools where they have hundreds of people. Then it came to the rather small school too. At least it wasn't so bad than the current school I'm in. That school had about less than a 100 people I guess. THEN, it came to the smallest school I've ever been TO! I had no problem with it until just recently. It came to my understanding that the school had A LOT of cliques. There are the junior, chinese, crazy, and serious groups in this school. I remember in my old school, the whole class had so much fun playing tag during break time. That was one of the memorable things I've gotta say. Its unlike this school. sigh...

Up to this day I cannot stand the fact that everyone gets to go out on their own time. And anytime they want too! Its sometimes interesting to know about other people's life. If they have no bad problems with them. =P

Too bad I can't post pics now but maybe some other time WHEN I can. I miss my mozilla...

Being irresponsible is Bad!

"Things always happen for a reason; together they hold a special meaning inside our hearts"

Over the past few days, I've been rather tired and getting in trouble for doing or causing something wrong. Tired, because I've been working my butt off the whole day trying to understand what the book is trying to teach me. Although I know its just a review.
Getting in trouble, cause I was not suppose to wander off outside the school compound, without telling anyone or adults, by ourselves.

In this world, there are things that are maybe more important to us than any other thing in the world. These things could either be valuable or not to us. I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here either.

As I write this post tonight, responsibility to all of us IS very important as we take care of ourselves too. I say this is because I have been very irresponsible this few days. I know I'm not suppose to do them but I did them without thinking first. How STUPID of me! I didn't think WHAT will happen after that. And I had to give it away. sigh...

I tried many times to stop her from giving it away but she just won't get it. The other day after school, she and I went the park and I was sitting down on the bench thinking about stuff while she wondered off into the fields. Then I suddenly thought of her. I feel/think that she is going to be like my other friend (age 11) I was with last year and I struggled with that is good enough. Although she's 13 this year. I don't remember me being like that when I was her age. Maybe cause at that time I had NO friends at that time. I really feel she's gonna be like that kind. It worries me if she gonna be like that. Cause I've had enough of that already. But now that my other friend from last year is no more in the school, I'm gonna miss that of another companion.

Ever since new students came into the school, I have felt rather "ugh". That's cause they're so hard to communicate with. It really hurts and bore me that I can't enjoy. sigh. These bunch of girls right, they keep on saying that they're a bunch of "outcasts" sitting on the couch outside the school every break time. It really sucks! Then there are these girls and I'll call them 'A' and 'B' and 'C'. Just for your sake to know who I'm talking about. You should know that the names I put aren't theirs. haha. Ok. So, A is always cracking up jokes while C is saying nonsensical stuff that sometimes we can't even understand. Then B is like sitting there and listening to all the things that they've gotta say. She is super quiet and we have to ask her stuff to speak up I guess, but when we her stuff she gives questions which is just not normal. So now that you know what I'm talking about you can understand. I missed and preferred the times I was in last year.

To end this post with...

"Lets get a nice FIRE going!"

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