Uneasiness

For the time that the time has passed, I was under a nervous feeling of presenting myself in public. Don't know why but I've not gotten used to the whole performance thing. But it'll soon build up. Like me acting in front of an audience. That's something I'm not so used to yet.

In school, there was this pastor that came to give a talk on respect. Later, he asked us to come up with a short play about disrespect. We were all put in groups as we were told. So my group which came up later, started a little shaky then later it was going kinda smoothly I guess. Since I was the main character of the whole thing, my ending was very good. I liked it too. I pretended to cut myself and die on the floor like a dead woman that has just passed out. After the presentation, I got some very good comments on my acting. I really liked it. But it was too bad that my dad didn't have the camera with him or else he could have taken a video or pics of my acting. But anyway that's over now.

Crazy evening

Hello, netball practice again... and a good thing its already the last day of the school holidays for the week. But I've got to be prepared for next for some more practices and some other stuff that I'm going to be irritated by.

I'm looking forward to school just to do my work that I'm suppose to do provided I don't get any disturbances by some noisy people. Which I doubt I'll get any. *sigh*....

After netball practice I went to Karlynn's house with Steph. Had a great time. Took funny / emo pics and hilarious videos. Here are some:

sleepin and smiling...

droopy look....

Some of the funny ones are actually quite sick. But I would think that they are only appropriate for women who understands. So don't get me wrong of not showing them to you.

While on the computer, we started looking at other people's blog then to hot guys then to more hot guys. Steph and Karlynn were screaming like they were obsessed with hot guys and its like they scream because they're so HOT!!! I'd have to admit that they were cute.

After much screaming... we rested awhile and it was time to go back.

Today, I'm going to try my best to get a shot of Karlynn's cutie. The one she says that its so cute. But I'll try to be careful. Gotta go have lunch now.

Work out time

First netball practice was even done during the raya holidays. It was better than being stuck at home being so bored. But there was something more that made my holidays livelier. You'll find out...

Today's netball practice was good for me. I had a lot of good exercise done, I think. But anyway, I had a lot of fun and a bit of weirdness and laughter in the game. For the first game (practice) that we had, the first few shots during the game gave the players a feeling of vomiting or dizziness. But I felt okay other than the fact I needed more water to have the thirst go away. I had such a great time other than that my pants was falling! Embarrassing like anything.

After practice, I followed Steph and Karlynn back to Steph's house. We spend the whole afternoon just talking and chilling out in her room. It was a very nice room actually. I would trade room with her if I wanted to. But, nah, it'll be unfair to her anyway. Her room look so much nicer to have. What in the world am I talking about? Huh, about her room of course. Lol.

In her room, we were talking about Darren (a gay kind of guy in school) that suddenly crushes on Karlynn and asked her for a relationship. So the minute they told me the so-called "big news" to me, I was like OMG! How can that happen?! That is just so wrong. You two cannot be together cause they will be like...the weirdest couple ever in the whole school and besides she likes someone else already which she already broke off with. But she has another another guy that she likes too. I rather have her with that someone else than with Darren. Everyone in school has already started to suspect that there'll be something going on between the both of them anyway. So I just froze there with nothing coming out of my mouth. I was so shocked that nothing was functioning. *...* Had nothing to say.

After lunch, we took some REALLY C-R-A-Z-Y videos of ourselves being some insane person either on tv or acting some insane stuff. There was one or two videos that we took that we so funny. Some crazy photos too. Lol!

Then we started talking about organizing an outing to go to 1U and go bowling. But unfortunately, people that we invited couldn't make it. So sad...

And I'm now here blogging to you. That's it.

As the week go by...

The first day of Hari Raya break was kinda boring. I just did my computer, play the guitar and practice my violin and do more work which my father asked me to. Cause he'll catch me if I didn't do any work.

Then on the second day, I went to the Gardens (a new mall which just opened a month ago). I thought it was going to be very nice. But it wasn't as nice as I thought it would be.

Here are some pics I took:

Don't know if you can see the light that are pointing towards the brown board.

These are pics from the Isetan in the Gardens:

See how nice the sofa is. Its so much better than other places.

After half the day was gone, I finally got some excitement in me after looking through so many expensive item. And I mean that they are really expensive. I got to play one racing game in the arcade. That was the only time I was happy about that day. So while my mom went to do some errands, I waited on the bench just dazing away into space. While waiting for her, I felt soooooooo sleepy. zzz.... I can literally fall asleep but what in the world was I thinking. After everyone else would be staring at me in the "what in the world is this girl doing?" kind of look. So I tried my best to look at something which would not make me fall asleep. But after all that I've tried, nothing could stop me from falling asleep until I saw my mom paying at the cashier. FINALLY! Time to go home.

Christian day

Today was super weird cause I attended a lot of Christian events. First it was church then going to my friend's church until 7pm. Isn't that like a long day? Yeah, exactly.

In the morning, I attended church at my pastor's house. It was so hot cause I was wearing long pants. I have my reasons for wearing them. During his message, I was feeling so sleepy that I could just fall asleep. Zzzzzzz..... Then when church was FINALLY over, I was feeling so energetic. Whoo-hoo! My friend, Lee-Ann, always has so much to say. She will always have something to say to me. Its nice having her as a friend in church rather than that annoying girl I told you about. Never remind me of her again. Never I say. Its like a nightmare. It'll give me the shivers. Then we were so bored that made us all wanted to go upstairs. I wanted to see their rooms though. So that's why. Then after seeing their rooms and all, we all felt so bored. I was going to fall asleep again. zzzzz.....

Oh no! I knew I was going to be late for my DBS. Well, not that late at least. lol! Finally, I reached the room, called room 109. But today, they had a different arrangement on the classes of who is going to tech and such. The leader teaching us was not very exciting as my cell leader who is a lot more funnier.

I joined Karlynn for her church today right after DBS and it was different than mine which was kinda nice being a big congregation again. Its been a long time since I've to a big congregation with people I know. Great music too. I didn't quite get the preacher at first then later after jotting down notes I knida got what he was trying to tell everyone. It basically about Nehemiah's prayer and so on.

So I've been out of the house since morning until night. And this is for attending Christian events. Which feels so Christian-like of me today. Weird...

Can't wait for the holidays to begin. I'm so excited that its just around the corner. Yay! I'm going to do so much and make sure I get ready for netball. I have to buck up on my skills in netball. I've been weak lately. Don't know why. I think it was because of not enough of exercise. But make an effort to do it.

A shout out to all those Muslims: HAPPY HARI RAYA!!!!!!!!!!!

Ciaoz =)

The Ups and Downs

Wednesday
It was Karlynn's bithday and some shocking things happened. During choir practice, Lisa suddenly came out of the blue and shouted for Karlynn. I was so shocked that she came all the way to school to give Karlynn her birthday present. I was so shocked that I couldn't even believe my eyes or what I'm hearing. Then after school, I finally gave her birthday present. She appreciated it very much.

Well, this would be a happy day for me. But for the following thing, that would be a annoyance. Like I just said ANNOYANCE! I couldn't stand it but....aiya, just read it then you'll know.

Friday
First of all in the morning, while waiting for class to start, remember the annoying girl I was talking about she was disturbing me again. sigh... I felt soooooooooo miserable and also pitied her cause she was just sitting there listening to the conversation. Miserable cause she was hanging with me and like following me almost everywhere I GO!!! Urgh!!! So angry now. Sometimes I wish I could just tell her straight in the face, but there are times when I just look at her and I feel that I can't even tell her straight instead I've to lie which I don't like doing. Sometimes it can hurt a person lying to them.

Then class started and the morning was different from any other morning for me. 2 friends of mine from my class, Jo C. and Zane, were like chatting away and they were mostly making the most noise. So ya. Zane was asking me questions from the Bible book cause he did the test already and got 85% for his test so he thinks he's so smart at that book and started making me ask him questions. Big deal, right? Anyway, then came Jo C. asking me questions in her H&G(History & Geography). Later, she started sitting at my place doing our work together. It was kinda nice having her at my place, doing work together too. Then my teacher saw us together talking and sent her away.

Came the next incident when it was hilarious and full of blurness. lol! After lunch, Jo C. was calling Karlynn as she came into the classroom. I don't know if she heard Jo C. when she was calling her. Then she was so blur saying hi to us. lol Then Jo C. said hi again and she gave a blur look again. lol! It was so funny. Later, she gave us a little tickle that made us jump. That moment was nice and sweet. =) Lol!

Then came choir practice when I brought out my work to do cause there were still a little bit more of exercises to do. So I quickly did it. I felt very uncomfortable doing my work during practice time. But I still did it. I felt that I conldn't concentrate a lot singing. I know singing is suppose to be easy doing but it wasn't really.

After school when it was time to practice for netball, the rain just had to come and interupt our practice. That made us do more strecthing in school. I rather do drills than streches. sigh...

While everyone was talking about the netball team and their efforts in the team, the annoying girl that I was talking about, came and join the group and stuck next to me a like glue! It was so uncomfortable. Even when I asked her to stay downstairs, she still insisted on following me. Can't she just stay where she's suppose to be. I feel like punching her sometimes. But I can't be too harsh on her as well. I think Karlynn was right. I would pity myself too.

You know what I feel rite now? I feel like punching someone really hard like a punching a punch bag. Its that bad that I could just slam the wall or beat he drums really hard and slam everywhere. Like a person releasing some anger on something/somebody! I wish she didn't come tomorrow for service. Please don't come or else I'll so miserable hanging with her. I'm so sorry for saying this. Please don't be angry with me or anything cause I'm just releasing my anger into this stupid BLOG!!!

For her own good, I think she better stick to hanging with her own classmates around her age or hang with people from the junior class. She's that serious either, you know. I wonder how a person would feel if that person would hang with her for a day. She doesn't even know proper English and its hard for me to hang with her. So hard that I have to balance myself with speaking to people who speak to me with proper English and more higher standard at least and improper English. I'm not saying that I speak proper English or anything. Its just difficult.

My frustration tonight is so on her. Why do I even have such problems like this. She not really the kind of friend I would really consider having. Please don't think that I really hate her cause it might get me in trouble or something. And don't think that I am a person who is so harsh on people. Please. Thanks. =)

Goodnight...

Tonight, I felt really mad at my parents for not giving/allowing stuff I wanted. A simple stationery set like that they would not allow me to have it, but instead they wanted me to borrow from people. Which is so not what or how I planned it to go like. I wish, for just once in my life that they would allow me to get my own stuff. Instead of borrowing it from people. Feels like its not mine. (so mad)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just came back from church and before that just came back from Karlynn's church (after DBS). Tiring day, man I tell you. Cause you know la, I was staying over at her house that's why.

Very sleepy now, I'm outta here... zzz...